Showing posts with label Cogito Ergo Sum. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Cogito Ergo Sum. Show all posts

12.18.2019

Cuando me amabas...


Mood: meh...
Book: none
Music: Bring me back to life



Cuando me amabas.

Cuando me amabas las palabras brotaban
Como brotan los retoños en los rosales
Se expandían las capas a lo largo de mi ser
Me abrazaba tu lenguaje hasta el amanecer

Cuando me amabas las sonrisas desbordaban
Como desbordan los mares en la tempestad
Se estrellaban las olas con el brillo de mis ojos
Me acariciaba tu felicidad con ocasión de sonrojos

Cuando me amabas las historias tenían sentido
Como sentido tienen las calles aún sin habitar
Las vías eran caminos al refugio de tu abrazo
Me calmaba el pensamiento hasta dormir en tu regazo

Cuando me amabas las palabras brotaban,
Como brotan los recuerdos que asfixian mi pensar
Se aglutinan enfilados, sin trinchera ni descanso
Y en la asfixia brota el alma taciturna y con pesar.

3.03.2019

Mala... sei?


Mood: Sad
Book: Draw close to Jah
Music: Cruel world - Phantogram


What is the meaning of "mala"?
"¡Qué mala!" "¡Eres mala!"

I don't understand... I don't think I am.
I've seen people hurting old people, and I have cried for being a chicken shit and not standing up for those in need.
I've seen friends losing their loved ones to violence.
A sister of someone disappeared, she has never been found.

I wonder what it is the conception of mala that people utter so easily.
... right now, my heart hurts.

What is friendship after all?
Fake friend, we're all a bunch of fakes... trying to be truthful,
but as much as we try to be, we end up expecting too much.

Have I been there for you? is that me caring?
I either care (too much) ... or I either don't. I don't do errands in the middle,
perhaps a lack of balance, perhaps too obtuse to take in shades of grays that ameliorate the hurting, the troubles...

Everyone holds their truth, up high to the sky, but is it, in fact, the truth?
I need someone that is not placing all their hopes in something that seems so far from mortal reach.

Who are we really?
I am so undeserving, and I am so tired...
I'm tired of faking happiness I don't feel, I don't know how to show other self than this.
Perhaps... the world should twist and turn in a different direction because this reality seems so trivial and vain, and I can't stand futility, I can't stand people that are empty shells.

I wish I could care less, it does take the best of me.

8.31.2015

Cogito Ergo Sum


Mood: Satisfied
Book: Las enseñanzas de Buda
Music: SEL OST

* Cogito Ergo Sum *

El razonamiento se vuelve tortura con la que se nos castiga por no tratar de cambiar el mismo pensamiento sobre el ser, el existir y el de creer que sentimos cierta necesidad de buscar, dado que el mundo a nuestro alrededor nos hace crecer con la imagen del "Ego incompleto" y el mismo ego no sabiendo desistir, se aventura narciso y hedonista hacia la incongruente búsqueda de lo invisible en lo visible.

El ego... es creencia, creencia falaz.

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